I Surrender

Dear Jesus,

You have always been so faithful to me even if I falter and even if I neglect You. Lord, I thank You so much for Your faithfulness. In this time of trials and heartaches, You never left me. And it is only now in this troubled time, that I see it, and learn how to appreciate it.

Thank You Jesus, for the people who have prayed for me so that I would get to know You. Thank you for placing them in my life, that I may learn from them and that they may lead me back to You.

Lord God, You know what I am going through right now even though I may not fully comprehend it. Lord, You know what's going on in his mind and heart even though he may not understand it himself. Father, I just pray that You speak to our hearts. Let us know of Your desires and what it is that would be for the good of both of us. Lord, You know the pain I'm going through right now and Lord, I just seek Your healing. I can't do this by myself and neither can he provide that for me.

Lord, today You have revealed to Me, Your power and the wonders that You are as You work in the lives of those believe and I am convinced Lord, that You are listening to me and that You can do the same for me. Knowing that Father, I surrender this relationship to You. It is humanly impossible for me to single-handedly fix this. I need You. We need You.

I pray Father that you soften our hearts, especially Q's heart, that he may be touched by Your love. Lord, maybe he's going through a lot of things that he's brought with him growing up and there is nothing that I can do to make it better. Only You can heal Father. Only You can do it. I just pray Lord that You be with him and let him feel Your love once more. Let him have the desire to seek You Father.

Lord, I also, offer up to you our bible study decision. Lord, I know that we need You in this relationship and I thought that this bible study would help us grow in our faith in You. Teach me Lord what to say for him to be convinced Dear Lord.

Dear Lord, You know what's in my mind and You know the decision I'm grappling with. But I do believe that You didn't put this love in my heart for nothing. Lord, if it is Your desire that I remain in this relationship, then let it be done and I will do everything I can to make it work. Lord, if it is not Your plan for me, please give me the courage to be strong. Please grant me the healing that I need.

Father, You have impressed upon me this love for him and if we were not made for each other, I pray Lord that You use me Lord to help him get through the burden that he's going through and let me bring him closer to You, Lord. If that is what this relationship is for, I accept all the heartaches and all the pain.

Lord Jesus, please speak to my heart and tell me what I need to do. I'm done. I surrender it all to You.

Amen.